I think, what can make me happy? What can make me un-lonely? And I don't even know. I'm always yearning for what I don't have. I don't have a "relationship" and was never the type who needed one to thrive and be happy, but I am feeling that void, especially at Christmastime. I don't want to be anyone's crush or anyone's rebound or even anyone's girlfriend.. I want to be someone's lover, and not in the sexual sense of the word. I want to love somebody who loves me back. We're all lovers, but we don't all have lovers...
we're all just lovers and takers
breaking hearts to make the papers
- tristan prettyman
I guess I could chalk the loneliness up to the season, but really, I don't think it's that. The season just kinds of increases it.
I want a lover and I wanna be a lover to someone.